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Story Stuck

When your story’s stuck,

it’s a chance to see,

to express it

afresh.

Associations

When I say Holocaust,

do you think of living skeletons

with sunken eyes staring

nowhere? 

You are like a duckling

imprinted with mommy.

When I say Holocaust,

Middle Passage, Gulag,

or Great Leap Forward,

don’t you see, it’s

the very one

right here before your eyes

you turn into a thing.

Drag

You drag it –

your pain, your image,

your worry, your fear –

around behind you,

an anvil you’re chained to,

ever holding you back

as you strain against

its weight.

It’s a nightmare,

a pointless, unnecessary

project,

and you even sense it is,

right there inside the dream

itself manifesting

the urge to wake up.

Modern Stress

Stress:

your reptilian amygdala

surges with

‘fight or flight’ reactions,

decisions impulsive –

like responding to a cobra

coiled in your path –

so that you act decisively,

the threat soon ended.

But modern stress

isn’t about threats-met-quick,

but about ongoing situations –

relationships, careers, 

and a host of needs

and obligations –

about

endlessly intense

states of being

where the power surge

of hormones like cortisol

isn’t as it was momentary,

but continuous,

stress going

from short reflex

to human condition,

the wild pumping

as a lifestyle

literally heart-hurting.

Continuous stress:

a bad way to live

for body and mind,

very bad.

How to get free

of this habitual, threat-driven,

frightened and damaging

impulsiveness?

It’s as simple as your breath,

its baseline focus

calming amygdala activity,

allowing the parasympathetic

system to kick in,

so you see more widely, slowly,

spaciously,

calming endorphins flooding

as seeing-red cortisol influx ceases,

so you can clearly reflect

and care-fully choose.

This is science describing

how you come to feel differently,

but the transformation

of feeling is intimately yours,

yours when you are ready.

Privileged Fear

Privileged fear:

I need more

than enough

so I won’t be

exposed;

I need

some thing

or must be

some thing

I’m not

despite

having much,

this ‘much’,

and its

mirror image

lack,

more

important than

human relation;

so I’ll

ignore

the others’

stuff

(read:

  suffering),

and

rationalize

or

minimize

my guilt,

doing so

with only

partial success –

so that, now,

again,

I must be

someone else

exposed,

requiring,

in my

anxiously

multiplying

fear,

many, many

more

(ineffective)

protections.

Perspectives

You feel that I am being selfish

and that I don’t appreciate

all you’ve done.

I feel that you are being selfish

and that you don’t appreciate

all I’ve done.

It’s clear: each is focused

on me,

and even selfishly expectant

in magnanimity.

Realizing selfishness,

getting a glimmer,

already a step away

from small self,

now what obtains?

Don’t Knowing

The people you think you know,

you don’t.

So don’t know these beings,

completely open

to what you don’t know.

Then you’ll know.

Relation Real

What is the relation

of white paper

to black ink?

What is the relation

of words to flesh and blood

and all else?

What is the relation

of flesh and blood

and all else

to what words express?

Is it that sometimes

words represent some things

and other times

just through

these words

everything is expressed?

Isn’t it that both

often occur at once?

Isn’t it so when you call out

Hey! Watch out!

just before someone steps out

into the path of an oncoming bus?

No matter,

the question mark

is dispositive

to live

alive.

Living Live

One may live dead

in views and habits.

To live alive is to realize this –

never happened before,

never to happen again.

Narratives

Are you stuck in your narrative?

Perhaps the end of being stuck

is not to end narrative

but for narratives

to arise and pass

like clouds shaping

unfazed sky

for a time.

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